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Here’s the long version:

Good to hear from you.

Sorry to hear about Keegan. I’m sure it’s hard to do anything when your little one is suffering like that.

I’m glad you got back to me. It’s tangible encouragement.

When ever I’m hearing from God I hear it ineffably, and the first language that comes to me is pictures and metaphors.

Old Friends

1 Peter 4: For you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do

What a message to process. The verse that comes to mind for me

John 1:12 Yet to all who did receive him, to those who believed in his name, he gave the right to become children of God—” “13 children born not of natural descent, nor of human decision or a husband’s will, but born of God.


John 10:17 The reason my Father loves me is that I lay down my life—only to take it up again. 18 No one takes it from me, but I lay it down of my own accord. I have authority to lay it down and authority to take it up again. This command I received from my Father.”

Jesus made the perfect choice(s) he always chose to

  • Listen to the Father
  • Obey the Father

Look at the “If – Then” statements by Jesus in John 15:1-17

– God’s power lies in our hands IF…. ? Consider/ponder

I looked at your email, and at Numbers 27, I’ve underlined a couple of things that jumped off the page at me, from your email.

Hi Laurence – I’ve been meaning to reply to your email all week, but Keegan has been sick with Croup and its been hard to find the time. Thank you so much for sharing your writing with me, I really appreciated it. I found it especially relevant as I was doing my devotions on Tuesday and happened to be reading in Numbers 27 when the daughters of Zelophehad came before Moses and made a case for their right to an inheritance of land. Because their father had passed away, they would not have been considered for an inheritance. But they approached Moses and argued that just because their father was passed, they were still children of Abraham and entitled to the promise. I found it very timely to have read this story this week as it highlights again the need to claim the blessing even though it is rightfully yours. Inheritance doesn’t just rain down over us – it is passed down and therefore must be received.

Numbers 27:3 “Our father died in the wilderness. He was not among Korah’s followers, who banded together against the Lord, but he died for his own sin and left no sons. 4 Why should our father’s name disappear from his clan because he had no son? Give us property among our father’s relatives.

I’ve just spent 2+ hours in tears, and eager participation in the Spirit, listening and typing. This word is from the Holy Spirit. Let’s test it! (1 Thessalonians 5:19-22)

I need to find agreement for the truth that God has taught me. Your participation with me is building the church, as well as building up one another.

Prophetic words are for the prophet first, then for the church at large. You are fanning into flame YOUR SPIRITUAL gift of prophecy. But so also, my gift(s)

We are mutually encouraging one another in our faith. (Romans 1:11-12)

When I started my page was blank. I had a single thought bouncing around in my head. I tried at first to answer with my thumbs with my phone, sitting in my kitchen over a cup of espresso. But soon I realized that wouldn’t do it. I struggled with whether or not to confess to you how much your response means to me, and how the timing is perfect, because it’s God’s timing.

I proof read what I write, because while I’m writing it’s under inspiration. And I’m a human instrument. And so are you.

Those ladies changed how things were done! They did it through “due process” – confidently bringing it before Moses, who was the one in charge. What did Moses do with it? It brought it to God. Below I refer to James 1, ‘ask God’

The only time the word RIGHT occurs in Numbers 27 there is in verse 7. But as you know, the Old Testament was written in Hebrew. I use the Blue Letter Bible to help me do word studies through interlinear tools (bridging the gap btwn me and the original languages) and commentaries. I really love David Guzik’s insights. Here is the word study for the word, RIGHT used in verse 7,


RIGHT then, God’s response was to change how things are done. We as protestants SAY we don’t honour tradition above the authority of scripture. To which I say, “oh, really?” But to change how things are done, we have to go up against the crowd, and how things have always been done. But we have to go about it according to the example of these ladies. Have you ever read about the Korah rebellion?

  • Numbers 16 – Korah Rebellion
    • Numbers 16:1 Korah son of Izhar, the son of Kohath, the son of Levi, and certain Reubenites—Dathan and Abiram, sons of Eliab, and On son of Peleth—became insolent 2 and rose up against Moses.

Numbers 27:3 “Our father died in the wilderness. He was not among Korah’s followers, who banded together against the Lord

You are a woman of God. You are Katelyn. You have a unique GIFT that is the composite of all the gifts God has given you. As you pursue those gifts, I once again echo Paul’s encouragement to Timothy, to fan those gifts into flame, just as you are doing. I am praying for you, and will continue Katelyn.

What’s going through my mind is coming fast… it’s life giving to have the Holy Spirit spending time with me! I love his presence, I love his ministry in my life.

God’s action – Our action

You’re raising your little one, Keegan, one day at a time. And in the case of when he’s got croup, you’re raising him one moment at a time. You die to self every time you crawl out of bed, to go and look after your little one.

Your investment in that little life is all life long. Selfish parents have a “bill coming in the mail”. I won’t tangent into the verses that talk about reaping and sowing.

Some actions pay off now, some much later, so it is with living in obedience to God.

When I’m in the moment, when I wrote you, my faithful comforter, the Holy Spirit, was there with me, putting each step in front of me for me to lay my foot in. As I obeyed and wrote it down, more came to my mind. I was filled with assurance…

But then time passes and I wonder. I don’t know Katelyn. All my doubts come back to haunt me… And I lay down to die again.

Your honesty last Sunday morning as you shared what God put on your heart has been a real death to me, to the me that must die. That proud, arrogant, puffy one who makes it sound like he knows what he’s talking about. But it’s so little a part of me anymore that it wasn’t so much a part of me, as something that was in my hand working it’s way up to take over control.

As you shared you fumbled around, you wondered out loud how can we resist God? Why would we resist God? Was Jacob wrestling AGAINST God?! Why would he do that… those unresolved questions are the things that leveled the playing field. Those of us that heard you, could either hear those questions and seek their answers, or they could criticize you, or mock you or doubt you. Those who look at the flesh and blood human being are the same ones who seek the Glory that comes from people.

We don’t have to stay the way we are.

Bonhoeffer in The Cost of Discipleship said it, he said, it hurts when the flesh dies. The flesh wants assurance now that our obedience paid off. We live in a world of instant gratification. We want, we shop, we find, we pay, we bag it and come home with our stuff. We don’t even have to work for the means to buy our stuff… buy now pay later world of credit. That’s me 100%, that’s painful to realize. But pain is evidence of death, and the death of something like that is a good thing. God can’t fix it if we don’t let him, can he? It’s certainly a stage in the process, though. I’m thinking out loud now. When we lack wisdom… hey! That’s a verse… wait here…

James 1:2 Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, 3 because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. 4 Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything. 5 If any of you lacks wisdom, you should ask God, who gives generously to all without finding fault, and it will be given to you. 6 But when you ask, you must believe and not doubt, because the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea, blown and tossed by the wind. 7 That person should not expect to receive anything from the Lord. 8 Such a person is double-minded and unstable in all they do.

Doubt is where it starts, and doubt leads to action, the action is walking in the direction away from God, toward what has raised itself up as being greater. Why wait! Have it now! Don’t wait for God! And baited we swim after the hook dangling in the water, staying just ahead of us as we swim into random oblivion, away from God.

In that Faith chapter in the Book Of Hebrews,

“Now faith is confidence in what we hope for and assurance about what we do not see.” Hebrews 11:1 NIV

“These were all commended for their faith, yet none of them received what had been promised, since God had planned something better for us so that only together with us would they be made perfect.” Hebrews 11:39-40 NIV

I believe the message for both you and I, Katelyn, is about perseverance, and faithfully remaining, waiting… for HIM ALONE. And in the meantime, being obedient.

Keegan’s need this past week was and always will be part of your obedience. You can set aside your obligation – your duty – to your son, your husband, your community, your brothers and sisters in Christ, but in doing so you are walking in the wrong direction.

I’m constantly tempted to forsake my position as father to my 5 children, and as Grampa to 7 grandchildren, to go do the “Lord’s work” and I give in far more than I’d care to admit… and I find myself out in open water, floundering around, suckered again.

John 6:29 Jesus answered, “The work of God is this: to believe in the one he has sent.”

I needed to hear from God, and I needed to hear from you, Katelyn. You could have cheated Keegan, by worrying about me, but I doubt it would have had nearly as big effect as the timing that was God’s. I needed to wait. That part of me that is needing to die, died a little bit this past week. You don’t get all the credit, either. My plans, my grand ideas, are just as much temptations as they are anything else. Unless God builds, they that labour do so in vain.

Psalm 127 – The whole chapter has a big message for us

I’ve gotta get out of here! So much is pouring in! Daniel’s prayer seemed unanswered, 

Daniel 10:7 I, Daniel, was the only one who saw the vision; those who were with me did not see it, but such terror overwhelmed them that they fled and hid themselves. 8 So I was left alone, gazing at this great vision; I had no strength left, my face turned deathly pale and I was helpless. 9 Then I heard him speaking, and as I listened to him, I fell into a deep sleep, my face to the ground. 10 A hand touched me and set me trembling on my hands and knees. 11 He said, “Daniel, you who are highly esteemed, consider carefully the words I am about to speak to you, and stand up, for I have now been sent to you.” And when he said this to me, I stood up trembling.

12 Then he continued, “Do not be afraid, Daniel. Since the first day that you set your mind to gain understanding and to humble yourself before your God, your words were heard, and I have come in response to them. 13 But the prince of the Persian kingdom resisted me twenty-one days. Then Michael, one of the chief princes, came to help me, because I was detained there with the king of Persia.